If you are not sick enough of your present state, you probably will not do the work, but know it is costing you more than you can see through the fog of pain. Know that the price is very high for staying there, and it will get worse….
Okay, so we admit it, we need help…now what?
I am a big believer in prayer, and a bigger believer in praying scripture. I have prayed specific scriptures over my husband and six children for years, and I have seen miracles. The only way I have conquered any battles in my life has been the powerful combination of prayer and scripture, or praying scripture. This battle is no different. All repentance has to start with the truth,
” Lord, I have un-forgiveness, hurt, hate, resentment, bitterness in my heart, I want to be delivered from this bondage, and I want a clean heart before You, Lord, you have to show me my enemies as you see them, you have to give me your love for them, you have to show me how to pray for them”…..
I remembered the last time I had seen this group of people that had attacked my family. They were full of anger, and set on destruction, they seethed with hate…what a miserable existence; my heart began to ache for them. If it were not for the grace and mercy of God, I could be them! I was filled with compassion, and for the first time in years, I prayed for them. Not a prayer of accusation, or rehearsing the pain, but a cry for mercy for my enemies…I used their full names, and I wept for them.
Pray for the ones that have hurt you and release them from being your God. Pray for their health, their salvation, their healing and their families. Pray scripture over them, and trust God to bring judgment, conviction, and grace. Keep doing it, until you have no emotional reaction to anything they do, until you are free….
It may be the battle of your life, but you will win this war. Since this has been lifted from my heart, I have een amazing changes. My marriage is better than ever, I have seen huge breakthroughs with my kids, and an even sweeter relationship with my three older boys, we recently had a conversation about the reality of their lives that I had always dreaded. Interesting enough, they started the conversation, and were more healed than I knew. The conversation I had avoided, ended in tears, hugs, kisses and a deeper love and understanding between the four of us. My creative life is flowing, and I believe God is using me like never before….it was WELLworth the fight; it was a battle worth fighting, don’t give up!
Psalms 25:16
“Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted, the troubles of my heart have multiplied, free me from my anguish. Look upon my affliction and my distress and take away all my sins. See how my enemies have increased and how fiercely they hate me! Guard my life and rescue me: let me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in you. May
Integrity and uprightness protect me, because my hope is in you….”
Amen
