This week has been exhausting, house guests, events, and persecution.
  What more could a girl want?
  This week I stood and looked into the face of evil, people that are set on harassing my family, and stopping us from our call.
 We stood by helpless as our friends and family were dragged into the madness.
  We humbly pleaded our case, softly spoke the truth and tried to stay composed as our lives and our children were mocked.
  We stayed up praying in place of sleeping…we did our best to continue in our lives and all that was expected of us.
  We held on to each other, we stayed steady in the face of insanity.
   The people that have come against us do not know us.
  They are passionate with their hate and their “cause”…last night lying in bed, numb from week...it hit me.
  They do not hate us, they hate God!
  All their energy has gone into their hatred for God.
 Suddenly, my exhaustion turned to compassion; I began to pray for God’s mercy upon those that persecute us and our innocent children.
  To hate Gods little ones, his widows, his orphans, his children, is to hate the Creator Himself.
  What a sad, lonely, empty existence, what a meaningless life, what a dreadful eternity.
  I feared for my enemies.

We may not lash out in a purposeful accusing of the brethren, but if we turn away from those in need, are we any different?
 

What did Jesus leave us here to do?
  Are we to build our own kingdom, or give our lives away for those in need?

At 23, I cried out passionately to God from my cozy suburban home, I wept before Him and said these life altering words, “ Lord, use me, brake me, make me what you want me to be, no matter the cost, I want to serve YOU”…be careful what you pray…the cost is great, the life eternal, the persecution intense, the beauty immeasurable, the earthly battles unending, as is the eternity….I choose my eternity with Him, knowing the cost on this earth will always be greater than I am prepared for…but I choose to love those who hate me, I choose to love God above all else… I choose to stand and not run…I choose to serve the little ones, the innocent ones…I choose life in the face of death!